Fuck, it has been awhile.
Haven’t been on here for various reasons; mainly trying to focus on real life. But fuck, real life is a bitch. I was watching a movie today and just bewildered with the thought, “Here these people are, being paid to act as if they understand life and know it all yet, in reality, probably have no idea what’s going on just like me.” In the past 10 months I’ve gone through depression, more stress than ever in my life, contemplated suicide (seriously not just talking), and had my ass chewed practically non-stop. However, I know I am a victim of my own personal choices, I made them nobody else. Fuck, that’s a stupid topic to try and be humble about. “Climb a mountain, tell nobody:” Such a simple yet, unseemingly tough thing to do. .If only life was a simple as it used to be. I’m not quite sure it got complicated, clouded thoughts of the ‘real world’ when the actual world doesn’t give a shit about anything we do. We live and grow together, yet we die alone. So here we are, confused and downtrodden by life and its inhabitants, yet we do not give up. As in an ancient Chinese poem, “Why not take the torch and go wandering?” Live life, sacrifice for life. You never realize what great things there are until they are gone.
